As I have traveled this journey of recovery and restoration from the injury of divorce, I have often had to just “sit with God.” I had no words, they wouldn’t form, but I knew I had to be near Him.
I am amazed that I have practiced Christianity for 37 years, but it wasn’t until my life fell apart that I learned the power of “sitting with God.”
What I mean is, there are times that I arise very early, before day, and go to my living room and sit on the couch – no worship music, no praying, no Bible reading…just sitting. I close my eyes and say “God, I am here.” I have no agenda, I just show up. He meets me and I sense His presence around me and the tears begin to flow.
When I am burdened, anxious, concerned or facing a trial; He has taught me to “sit with Him.” When I am in His presence, the “heaviness” leaves. I receive strength and encouragement.
Psalm 61:2(b)..When my heart is overwhelmed: Lead me to the rock that is higher than I.
He may remind me of a past problem that He has brought me through which invokes gratitude and praise, or He may bring to mind an area in my life that still needs healing which brings humility. He may remind me of something that I said that I should have said differently. But, most of all, He reassures me that I am LOVED and that He will always be there.
Sometimes that is all I need. I don’t need more money, a new car, a vacation, or a big house. I need to know He is with me.
There are times when I’m watching TV and God directs me to turn it off and sit with Him. Immediately after my divorce, I went an entire year with no cable or internet. My testimony is that I grew more spiritually in those 12 months than I have in my lifetime. There are times when God will direct me to “shut in” on a Saturday and be with Him. He prepares the agenda by directing me to passages in the Bible to read, topics to study and guides my prayers. This is how I nurture my relationship with Him, by demonstrating to Him that HE is my priority and I don’t give him the “left overs” from my day when everyone else has received my best. Above anything else, I need HIM. He has assured me that I can handle what comes if I stay connected to Him.
John 15:4 – Abide in me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit of itself, except it abide in the vine; no more can ye, except ye abide in me.
Divorce leaves you broken and shattered. Sometimes so shattered that you will never recover all the pieces of your heart, but the beauty of serving the Lord Jesus Christ is that you can bring Him what remains. He is the God of resurrection and multiplication. He took 2 fish and 5 loaves and fed 5,000 men (multiplication) John 6:9-14. He called forth Lazarus from the grave (Resurrection) John 11:43-44. He is the same yesterday, today, and forevermore. He took the fragments of my broken heart and resurrected me to new life with a new heart. How do I know this? The evidence is that the anger and hatred that crept in when I was rejected, abandoned, and betrayed is gone. There is now forgiveness, love and compassion. God is using my pain and testimony to bring healing, peace, hope and restoration to others. That is multiplication.
Oh how I need Him. Oh how I love Him. I don’t even view my life the same anymore! This is because God pushed the “Reset” button and gave me a new mindset, a new attitude, new desires and ambitions – all to bring glory to Him!
Too often, we seek religion – legalistic practice of do’s and dont’s. I am here to tell you that God wants RELATIONSHIP. He does not just want you to know ABOUT HIM, but He wants you TO KNOW HIM, intimately.
How can you embark upon this relationship? Try “Sitting with God.”
Scripture references taken from biblegateway.com. Photos/Graphics taken from Google images