March of 2019 marked 7 years since my marriage ended. 7 is God’s number of completion so I began to ponder what has been “completed” in my life. What have I “graduated” from?
To start, I have completed the grieving process. I am no longer battling sadness and the pain of loss. I still think about it at times, but I am able to quickly dismiss it and move on. That is tremendous growth for me.
I have completed feeling sorry for myself. No more of the “Why did this happen to me?, Why couldn’t my marriage be successful?” I no longer asks those questions because after 7 years, I have finally realized that I will not get the answers. I know that my future is before me, not behind me.
I have completed rehearsing the relationship. You know how you keep going back in your mind to see if you should have done something differently that could have changed the outcome? No more of that. I know that I was loving, dutiful and faithful. I am responsible for my conduct, not my ex-husband’s.
I have completed feeling ashamed of my failed marriage. It is a part of my story, I own it, but I am allowing God to use it to bring enlightenment, healing and hope in the lives of others.
I have completed wondering if I will ever love again. I do not know and only time will tell. For now, I am focused on enjoying each and every day that God gives me with Him and all the wonderful people who love and support me.
Lastly, I have completed “hiding”. I am now publicly sharing my journey through two divorces in my upcoming book entitled, “Divorce Journey: God Used my Pain for His Purpose.”
My book can be Pre-ordered at: https://yahscribe.com/shop/. – BOOK RELEASE JULY 2019.
I do not know where you are in your journey, but I am here to tell you that things DO get better, you DO get stronger, and you CAN live the life that God designed for you if you TRUST HIM through the process…on your worst days, TRUST GOD. This is how I made it through.
Proverbs 3:5 – Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.